He wanted to go home.
Kissed her father's shoulder.
Feeling strong.
So the spirit.
Put his heart on his father's heart: stringing prayer, smile, quiet, humble heart, which dwells so dusk.
So expectations.
So warm.
While waiting for the pig and cow feed.
Bananas and citrus fruits.
The rice is yellow.
Hard body full of mud.
He wanted to go home.
Mother hugged.
Feeling useless without sinking.
Put a finger on her finger.
His mother smiled with a prayer:''give him a long life of God!''
pray until late.
While waiting for the cookies baking.
Delicious cuisine served.
Body that smelled of smoke.
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CHILD
" L O V E "
When it touches pampered warmth
There is no sense of holding power
To hold her in the warmth of the body
When ice covered the night
Sliced liver could not resist the dark
Only He is the ultimate authority over the soul
My lover
No love left in the heart
All the dreams and the real merge
Just to see your smile
Want to rhyme I sang love
With all the life and soul
Teach you to touch the beauty of heaven
Guide you step toward him
My lover
There was no tears for the living and step
There was no tender souls scattered in the trail
There was no disappointment and lara cover your heart
Only your happiness, your smile I love the ocean
Complement Hearts
Small waves pounding tight hug my leg. Cream-sand beach foam finger tight grip feet. This afternoon the weather so warm. I look up, I saw there is a cloud of reddish so beautiful. In the middle of the clouds, I saw the sun wave hands. He will return home. Truly a very beautiful afternoon.
Now, I settled on the coastal edge. I leave only small waves hug closely feet. Suddenly, I am surprised that a frequency waves radiate from the mouth of a woman. Beautiful female voice from me.
Diana name. Curly black hair slightly reddish. Eyes rounded. Cornea little brown eyes. Pure white skin. Today, he looks so fresh with a tie dye T-shirts have the design of the heart that is used by them.
I have long engaged with. He was a special girl. Diana beautiful, but also smart. Most importantly, he would understand me. Understanding the advantages and all I lack.
Today is the commemoration day we fall in love the fifth. Not a day invented. But, the day falls in love. We never considered the first day official day as us. But, the day that we consider is the official day where we love each other. When we first exchange viewpoints.
I really love Diana. With simplicity, elegance, and everything. Diana looks like an angel. He is likely to be sent to earth to change my life. Friend, you not know that before with Diana, I was a very "different."
I am so lazy. Even just for school, I often cut once. I am often confused. I do not mind to be clear where. All this is due to pullout of the former me, Risa, for ever.
Diana is a new dream for me. After 3 years I own confusion in me, he suddenly came, and into the life I once only. Without permission.
We come in a very beautiful island. I still remember that exact moment. Lombok, 31 August 2005. At the time I am on vacation. Enjoy the beauty of the island with my family.
He is a native girl Lombok. With the same age. He was also at the school with the same. We already spend enough time together. So long, till I ask the parents moved me to school. Yes, now I finally moved the school in Lombok.
Diana mirror for like. He reflect what I want. Overall. Truly, Diana is beautiful and the biggest gift in my life. I do not want to lose him.
Day when I came back a year, for example. Diana to give something very special for me. A little tart, make up the cream form of two white roses (two days is the birth of I), with a candle (one is dated kelahiranku) above. He brings the right shows the day of birth I: 14:20.
A very special surprise. Yes, Diana was a very special for me. At least after I graduated from the mental hospital, and writing this story. Since losing Risa, I experienced psychiatric disturbances.
About Diana, turns out that my parents never took to Lombok for the holidays. Simply refreshing. However, there I never want to be home. I find the 'illusion I' in there.
Finally they let me stay in there so I get the world. In Lombok, I am cheerful. Can interact with friends with the normal. Only one thing is strange. Ie, Diana.
Photos with him, all its surprises, in fact I come from the mind itself. When I see an image, for example, both of us. Previously, I actually ask the coast guard for taking both of us. The result is indeed correct. But, when I look back now, I was alone photo.
Diana is also a friend of one with me in class. But, after I get to the guardian class I recently, he said that I always want to sit alone. No one can fill the empty seat next to me.
When you write the story of this laptop, the calendar shows the date 31 August 2008. I sit on the beach, where I acquainted with Diana. In fact ... sound waves that break before I dreaming, is the voice of a woman. This time he was real. My parents smile at me with that girl.
Street musicians
That morning, after dew seemed to the sky, the sun light to break through all the pores. Aorta, muscle, brain I also feel the soap is full of warm light. Osculation intercommunion imprint on the brow the cold after I touch on the night. My hair disheveled also be combed full unfortunately. Morning wind touching crown while whisper that time I have been awakened, a dream to connect the next day, and perform activities like day yesterday which is very boring.
As usual week, on a sunny day, the face of sluggish miserably to bring love and blackmail those who pass-thatch. While carrying a musical instrument composed of several closed beverage bottles, I sing a song idol of the young servant. Also idol street musicians like me. The song "The light out," has made people stunned and deceived, so that They willingly dive pocket and donate a few pieces a dime. Actually, I do not memorize the correct lyrics to the song. Yet, without the grind all, I already can chirp chirp like a parrot just a bath.
Have capital with a sober voice, my talent show that I actually never hide from birth. This is a case that had made, as well as the way of life that I have to browse. Being a street musician's dream is the worst of all. Also for myself. But what may make. The most important side can still be a compromise.
crossing roads and red light has been trying every effort to be the best friend I live in the complex of all, narrow, and bitter. I do not know, maybe this is the destiny that I must Go. Whether to when. I have a brain just to think every day if I need to eat. Without thinking how the switch or the mode, the withdrawal of young people now.
Perhaps, that day I was purple rather than the most weeks of the other. How not, when I play music in front of a red car plate (government car), there is a sharp beam eyes I stare. Highlight the eyes that had never saw before. Yes, a pair of eyes that can enjoy the wonderful songs full of feeling that I play. Tap the heart of the previous run normally, suddenly nervous. Because saking quickly, I made the inconvenience. Cold sweat from the second temple will dampen both cheeks and I is simple. Thin lips I can not continue the struggle. I lost awareness of the brain. Songs I stopped before the time. I felt his hands tied from behind. I do not think out. What on earth? Only because of what the eye gaze is so strong that I finally like loss of consciousness.
"This bud, thank you. The song I play in tunable by you all."
With a gentle hand over hand. Also a beautiful finger. He gave money thousand rupiah and sweet smile, which is still imprint on the heart wall. Smile that is the passion that makes life appear again and can survive the hard life of the city so hard. But, the smile is also pulverize the life of me, until in the most niche.
Accidentally, the worn-out hands that touch the very fine hands. Have felt the vibration and there was something I had never felt. I am not aware with what I've done.
After the events, every day I daydream a lot. Just because you want to meet again with the girls that make the heart vibrant. Up to that of my age-20 to this, I have never felt a feeling so terrible. Feeling that had the soul. Is this called love?.
It is distressing!
If you treat it well, he thinks you love him.
If not, you will be spelled out proud.
If you dress nice, you think he is trying to
seduce him.
If not, he says you plebeian.
If you argue with it, he says you hard head.
If you remain silent, he says you do not have a brain.
If you smarter than him, he will lose face.
If he is smarter, he says he is most intense.
If you do not love him, he will try to get yourself.
If you mencintainya, he will try to leave yourself.
If you let him masalahmu, if you pester him.
If not, he says you do not trust them.
If you choosy on him, you spelled out as a tutor for him.
But if he is choosy to you, it's because he's attention.
If you violate the promise, you can not be trusted.
If he deny that his promise, he was forced to do so because.
If you smoke, you are a wild girl!
But what he is smoking, he was a gentleman, WUIIHHH ..!
If you hurt him, you spelled women cruel.
But if he is hurt yourself, he says that just because you are too
sensitive and too difficult to be made happy !!!!!
If you send this to the guy-guy, they will surely swear, if
this is not correct.
But if you do not send this to them, you will lose
opportunity to say
they are selfish!
NOTE A WOMEN
At the age of 14 years, have a guy approach, really tired of hiding.
At the age of 24 years, that there is no approach, quite tired understand.
My boyfriend simulate drunk and take me back to the house, really tired rejects.
My boyfriend really drunk and vomiting on the floor, really tired cleared.
There are loans that money to my boyfriend, I fear they do not pay, really tired, and worry him.
my boyfriend borrow money with other people, other people really afraid to charge with debt, tired to worry himself.
Birth to a boy I like children afraid of his father does not have the
future, the children really tired.
Birth to a daughter, misguided as he was afraid his mother, with its tired.
Husband puppy time again, every day must be economical, really tired.
Husband many times more money, fearing he was outside of the study is not good,
really tired.
Husband is too sharp, in the streets there is always the guy who surreptitiously view,
I am tired.
Husband is too ugly, every exit on the road, really tired should explain to people what he is not
mydriver
smile angel injured
Middle girl is sitting and reading a sheet of paper in a few rooms temaram. An invitation to parents of a student graduation. Girl is Lina. Five more days he will reach a degree of communication.
"What I need to go back to the house so, it has been almost four years I never again set my feet in there." Lina suppress.
Almost four years he never again visited the place where he first tat boyhood and youth. Since the war he was involved with the father's mouth. Lina only because the father wanted his son studying in medical. Meanwhile, Lina choose science communication as a path of education.
In emotional, Lina leave home. Despite the weight of the heart, he should leave the younger sister, Rani, who is junior class 2. Lina regret everything. If the mother does not leave them too quickly. it becomes a little fracas can be avoided and he should not go out of her house.
Lina rise from a chair and reach mobile phone rings after a very long time. "Hi Bram, what?" Lina question.
"Lin, I remember a meeting tomorrow, come the morning more so," answered Bram. "Surely." Answer Lina short.
"Yes ... if so, good night it is, unfortunately," Bram end of speech.
Bram is the nearest Lina at this time. He often gives the spirit to run their lives in Lina. Bram also provide job opportunities for Lina to work in radio as a chore.
Lina the morning to leave office with a lot of things that flare up in the brain. He became difficult to concentrate. Bram see changes in attitudes Lina. Bram about Lina, "It's what, one day you look up haywire?" Bram help.
Lina submit a letter of invitation to the graduation Bram. Bram read, and then he said "So, what's wrong?"
"You know I own, I do not have long associated with the father. Now suddenly I need to meet with him again. I am confused, and more precisely bumbling nervous," said Lina.
"Why should you confused, it is now time to show you that fathers can be successful even without help from it," said Bram.
"But ...." Lina is still undecided.
"Never mind, it later after work I go home to home among you. ... Okay" Bram said Lina greeted with a nod.
It still does not change. Still painted white, the same as last time Lina visited the house. Lina moment hesitate to step in, but Bram reach hands and walk into.
Doors open and look Minah. "Miss ..." Old woman was surprised. "There are fathers, minah?" Lina question. Minah looks nervous. Lina run entry.
"Father has not come home two weeks, Nona. Ehm ... go since Nona's house, a lot has changed, Nona. Mr. so rarely home, she said business is business. Meanwhile, sister Rani women often go home the night, often not even go home , "said Minah length. Lina startled surprised to hear the word of Minah.
"Now, Rani is in the room?" lina said then.
"There, Miss, in the room, already a few days this does not leave room Rani. Rani also do not allow me to enter rooms. Oh yes Miss, what to drink?" Minah said.
"Buatkan to Bram, I do not have," said Lina. "Bram, I used to ride, I'm not feeling well," said Lina while going to the top floor. At room adiknya, he shock. Rani are to enter the syringe arm. "Rani!" Lina cried and ran to the Rani and immediately seize the needle tool.
"What you do! You use?" Lina outcry against brother daughter.
"No matter you! Why you here, urus only your own self." Rani screaming. He looked in pain.
Rani avoid corner and ran to the room. "Go ye! Where you when I am lonely. When I have a problem. I am alone here." Rani said with the sad.
"Yes I am sorry, Ran. I pity you as I promise you will not leave again," answered Lina. Lina slowly approaching the daughter and sister hug. Rani increasingly struggle to get loose, but do not embrace Lina weakened.
"minah ...," cried Lina. Minah not come alone. He is with Bram. "Minah please phone the doctor." Lina said. Minah out soon. "Bram please check this room, there may be remaining." Lina said that while the injection of Bram. The situation in the house have started restrained. Rani has started quietly.
When Lina father came, they spoke in the room work. Lina told the purpose coming. Lina submit the graduation invitations to his father. Lina fathers are willing to come and receive.
*) Nunung N
Men and Researcher
The city is silent and the silence in the cold night. It seems, the city where I began to dream up sleeping soundly and feel that only loneliness. One of the things that I like to think is in the dark, even crying in the dark. I close the eyes stronger, start to imagine what dark as the grave I wait. I immediately open the eyes as soon as possible.
Current five months ago, is still really strong in the embedded memory, and even up to second this. In fact, the rebel soul with what I've done to myself. That time I really did not freeze, only the still crying ago. For me, the world no longer. Many things that must be prepared when you attend because you will change many things. Some of the closest friend I was with said that they do not feel that myself and dare to take firm decisions.
"Maybe you use magic!" Ain began to look forward because no one that I respond to the serious. "You can do the! You can not continue like this, already a week!"
In the dark I remember all the smiles that have occurred. Fragile Aji I lost because I do not mind making tasks that pile up, forget the friends who always there for me. But, the heart can not deny everything, and I expect this night I miss him. Longing that I go to him who have created a map of my life changed overnight. He is capable of the day without me I surrender terms. Surrender to the beautiful love I keep silent.
Golden opportunity that I go by the waiting time. Because the most valuable when it is I do not want to Aji become the property of others. Things that have been mad I have to do is to love him so that I was chosen. Without her heart I only receive one hour, and I decided and said that he did not choose me.
In fact he knows that I have feelings for others, no longer considered as a friend. The more I remember what you have done for me, the more I miss him.
"You know, I like the small chase kites. Once I get it already, but my friends still have to have ambition."
"Finally?" I cut the story about the child.
"I can kite damaged. It's sad that time." His eyes look empty with the small
"I want to like the kite," I said.
"I want to love you like the kite. I want you I will not release the board." He was smiling. Smiles which means that he will release me.
Decisions that have been fixed dibuatnya course I did not receive. As a man he does not have the unmitigated temerity be the least. I likewise unstable himself.
"I have decided Eva," he said in the phone that morning.
I am among the happy and sad. Before I say that I love him, he had to love another woman, namely Eva. I present the time is not right. Then I ask him not to leave me for a while. He is able. During her there with me, he realized that there was love for me.
"He was angry. For, according to him I am wishy-washy in the teeth. I really like to say to him, but he does not dare to commit, and I do not want a relationship stranded without direction. The commitment that I get from you."
"Eh, no SMS from Eva," he said suddenly, I subside, fear.
"He ask me to contact him soon, I need you fear, I call again later. I do anything right, you do not be afraid."
Almost one hour more I am waiting to contact me again. Somehow what is happening.
"Eva the decision. He dares committed." Without directly kuminta he explains. I still do not know what should be said. "You certainly can Get it all." That last word in the phone.
Ripen the night, do not feel wet pipiku remember everything. He is a man of kite flying high and went with the wind. And I will never know where he went to land, land his heart. At first I just want to love himself in the silent, the more I save more and therefore I am weak.
So many words that he say, but no one has ditepatinya. In fact I have not forget to put all of it. This evening I'm suffering from insomnia for the time. I turn on the lamp room, and I search all about him.
*) Endah Tri Utari Amboina
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